Uh…now what? March 10, 2008

Ok….the dust is settling from having completed my presentation last week, and my feelings of relief, pride, fear and gratitude are waning.  So now what? 

I hadn’t really thought much beyond doing that one scary thing.  I guess I assumed that once I jumped that hurdle I might see the finish line(?).  I didn’t think about the row of hurdles between me and the goal.  I don’t want to lose this momentum, so I will just have to keep moving in a forward motion until I can see exactly what it is I’m jumping over that lies just ahead. 

I guess that’s the thing about growing.  There probably won’t be a time when it isn’t challenging or scary.  I thought I was only afraid of this one thing because that’s all that was in my view at the moment.  If we’re going to grow I guess there will always be the NEXT scary thing.  If we’re growing, we’re always going to be reaching outside our comfort zone (though our comfort zone will be getting bigger) and will always be facing the next uncomfortable challenge. 

Maybe the thing is that eventually we will learn how to get a little more comfortable with being uncomfortable……I know it’s been true about my pants.