Profiles in Courage March 12, 2008

Spring is in the air… the sky is blue……we’ve moved the clocks ahead………..and I’m feeling just a little lighter in my step these days after having tackled my presentation.  I find myself daydreaming of sunny days and book signings…..of candlelit dinners and snuggles on the couch in front of the latest romantic comedy……………(this is where you hear the sound of a bubble popping-BOINK!)  Uh, hello…Michelle…….what does that have to do with spring? 

Sorry.  I guess I’m perseverating.  It’s just that sometimes I really miss having a significant other (this is where the little person dressed in red would appear on my shoulder whispering….”you miss crying yourself to sleep every night?)  No, I don’t miss that…..

I’d been putting it off for a while (actually wholeheartedly rejecting the idea) but since I’m all about facing the scary thing these days I did it anyway. 

I created a profile on e-harmony.

I’m sure I am one of the last to visit this frontier.  But for someone who desperately wants love in her life (some say the fact that I even typed that word-”desperately”- is an indication that I am not emotionally ready for a relationship- I, however, say it is a poetic indication of the level of desire involved), I have been very reluctant to go out into the world looking for it.  So here I am filling out my “profile”.

The instructions remind me how important it is to be completely honest and not to over-think the answers.  Let’s see….on a scale of 1 to 7 (1 indicating rarely and 7 indicating almost always) how often DO I feel plotted against? 

The more I answer the cloudier my skies are looking.  If I submit this profile for match and they find my PERFECT match..?………I am assured a blind, obese man who knows not where he is going, but always brings his emotional baggage.  One who enjoys late night races to Carvel before closing, is generally depressed with asthma and a sense of humor.  My perfect match would want to travel the world, but is presently too broke to get to the bus station.   Oh…..and he loves show tunes……

Maybe I’ll take another week or so to work on me and submit this profile when I am a little better of a “catch” myself.